餐飲業的流動率真的很大

新人做沒幾天就放棄的那種不算

從我開始做到現在三個月又17天裡

正職、PT已離職和將離職的加一加快10個

 

今天上班的時候打開置物櫃

發現剩下我的東西

和我同一個櫃子的活潑女生就這樣悄悄的走了

唉

 

也不能強留

每個人總有自己的計畫

旁人無法干涉的

要學著眼界放寬一點

 

其實

我沒什麼立場和你討論這個問題

因為我常後悔

我常做讓自己後悔的決定

這樣的我叫你要把握的確是有點勉強

不過

我相信你一定作得到

因為你和我不一樣

你是不輕言放棄的人

 

還是希望你能回心轉意

 

晚上去吃麥當勞

人真多

好不容易在邊邊角角找到位置

想說可以多少看一點書

這個計畫馬上被一對國中生情侶破壞

 現在的國中生也太誇張

吃薯條吃ㄧ吃就親起來了

...

被國中生閃到還不能反擊...

過了大概十分鐘左右

他們的攻勢依然強勁

我

就起身

離開了

唉

 

現在處於半放假狀態

這次期末考都沒什麼熬夜

大概要準備重修吧

唉...下學期真忙碌

 

我說

可以不要再來了嗎？

換新的行不行？

重點是

換我喜歡的行不行？

 

提不起勁

 

    

 

我想看 我想看

考完試我要去看

超酷！！

 

  

 

 

人生

人際關係

就是這樣

 

從圍牆中把心掏出來

被傷害後

用更堅固的材料把心封閉

開一扇門讓心看看光明

發現陽光太刺眼

再將心關在黑暗之中

開一扇窗讓心透透氣

發現外頭並不如想像中純淨

再將心封的滴水不漏

最後

它會麻木、石化

鋼硬如鐵

不再輕易開啟

 

I think I can't handle it... 無法... 為什麼ㄌㄟ 好吧也許是我活該 可以不要做的這麼明顯讓我發現好嗎？不想分段不想分行不要看華華網誌的盧廣仲還不錯聽每當我背對地球抱著星空發現自己其實脆弱不敢說曾經在我眼前卻又消失不見酷斃了我想看電影step up超酷炫好想看但是自己一個人好孤單還是唸書好了老師說前兩次考不好的期末考沒把握考一百分的下星期不用來考了心情真低落需要買夏天的衣服天氣好熱我不喜歡下雨害我原本想看電影和逛街的興致都沒了怎麼會這樣我要跳脫這波情緒試著樂觀結果很空虛只是自己騙自己沒有意義沒有目標好難過可是我想不到目標本來就是一體兩面既然你可以想左為何我不能想右？不想和你爭辯並不是順從和妥協雖然好像常妥協我還是有我的傲氣身體好怪我想吃咖哩是失眠？沒有要你評論你可以閉嘴倚老賣老嘴巴說沒有你在做什麼？我討厭蟑螂夏天到了都跑出來了我好想念我會做到讓妳閉嘴不喜歡我沒關係我也可以討厭妳不要試著剖析我你不可能懂step up預告片好酷我也想學舞可惜當初半途而廢想要有人陪孤零零真可憐我不喜歡你不要這麼靠近總是天不從人願730要和小晰看神鬼傳奇3暑假快快來我不指望你們靠自己最實在is it you？

I'm looking for a lover not a friend
Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to
I'm looking for someone who won't pretend
Somebody not afraid to say the way they feel about you

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel
Someone who can keep me real and who knows always
Baby I like to have you in my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there
Wants to share, shows he cares
Thinking on the one that I've been waiting for

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me? (Could you be?)
Could you be the one I need?

I'm looking for someone to share my pain (Uh)
Someone who I can run to, who would stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with trough the night
Someone who I can trust who's hardest right
And I'm looking for someone

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows always
Baby I like to have you in my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there
Want to share, shows he cares
Thinking on the one that I've been waiting for

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be this one I need?

Take for grant
How much I care (How much I care)
And appreciates that I'm there
Someone who listens
And someone I can call who isn't afraid of thought to share

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

我承認我膽小

今天一直被蟑螂嚇到

...

在上班的途中

有被一隻從水溝蓋裡快速竄出來的小強驚了一下

瞬間我整個人嚇到往後退了半步

還不小心被路人看到

...我想同時我也嚇到他了

 

晚上的備註工作是我拿抹布

我本來還想說可以趁拿抹布的時間偷休息一下ㄌㄟ

結果才一開燈而已

我就看到一隻大強爬過去鑽進紙箱裡

我還說服自己

「還好，只有一隻，反正我也看不到他」

硬是壯著膽子走進去

結果，洗衣機後面的梯子上爬滿了大大強

少說也有4隻

媽呀...我超想逃跑的

可是抹布又不能不洗

只好一邊注意梯子上的大軍動靜一邊快速做事

中間還夾雜尖叫聲

還好最後我安全脫困

嚇死我的膽了

回到備餐折抹布的時候

備餐裡的人還問

「ㄟˊ ？今天怎麼特別快？」

...

真誠的建議「該除蟑囉！」

 

剛剛在桌上又發現一隻小小蟑

還好這種size的我還可以應付

不過還是想尖叫

天啊...超噁心的...

 

我以為誠實是美德

結果

誠實是要看情況才能決定它是不是美德

 

等我體認到的時候已經來不及了

話

早就放出去了

傷害

是傷他還傷我？這倒還不能斷定

 

好悶

 

我以為我可以承受更多

原來我高估了自己

嘖嘖

 

實話

果然還是只能放在心底